I've never had a true friend and i'm 26 yrs old. In high school the friends i had were mean and shallow, after high school i isolated for 5yrs drinking myself to death. I got sober, started making some friends at AA then i met my ex and through alll that out the window and spent the last 4yrs rapped up in him, now im back at AA and I'm trying to make new friends, i never stay after the meeting to talk though, i'd rather go home and do something fun by myself. i know that sounds horrible but thats how i feel. I do want close friends though, I'm really lonely in life. i just dont really know how to have a friend, i know i sound like a huge weirdo, i dunno i guess i'm just used to being a loner. Can anyone else relate????