Now I'm pondering how I'd feel about getting a response or not getting a response. I hadn't really stopped to consider it, thank you. There are many good points here, I appreciate all of the comments.

I already feel kind of needy-whiny-gross for posting this thread. I imagine that actually sending something to T1 isn't going to feel any better. Which still doesn't mean it is a bad idea - it might be an opportunity for me to try something different and see that it won't kill me. Ughhhh.

This is why I am allowed to contact him. He knew I'd rather set myself on fire than admit that I give a crap. Smart guy.