Aww don't be embarrased! If anything you should let it out here. That's what it's here for

You actually sound a lot like I do. So, you aren't alone. I get there sometimes. Every now and then. Maybe in a different way. But I know the feeling of moving your hands and not believing you're actually moving them. That distance from reality. That feeling of crappiness is hard to explain to people. But I understand Armus. I'm here if you want to talk