I'm here. The changes in her are quite substantial since we broke up three months ago.

I don't really understand the changes quite yet. I think she feels enlightened from three months of individual therapy and two months of group therapy. I'm trying not to judge it all too harshly. Trying to keep an open mind, but it's hard.

At the moment, I'm not quite sure what I'm doing here. I don't think there is any chance we can re-capture our "honeymoon".

After talking her today, I'm not sure if I love her or even like her. I hate to say it, but I think the best that can come of this is some meaningless sex. And quite honestly, I don't feel comfortable about that at all. At the same time, I wonder if intimacy can break through the block that is between us. I'm not quite sure where this fits in my ideas of "morality". At the moment I feel like I am here to provide her with sexual services.