I started having sex when I was 14. It was my first time and with my husband to be who is still my husband some 47 years later. We used pornography, fantasies, and even others throughout our sex life. My husband started to feel bad about this some 5 years ago and thus stopped any extra-curricular activity in the sexual arena. I find that I cannot have an orgasm any longer, nor do I feel inclined to have sex with him anymore unless we can use the things we used to use. I do not want to have sex with anyone else. Consequently, we have gone 2 years without having sex together. When we do have sex, I will usually get him off and go to sleep frustrated. He masturbates and seems to prefer that anyway. I will masturbate but will have to use pornography or fantasies in order to orgasm. We started out wrong and now I cannot seem to just want him as we have always had something or someone else with us in the sexual equation. Needless to say, I am frustrated.