((((Wolfin)))) I can totally relate. Usually when I get triggered, it creates a fight / flight response in me where I just want to protect myself, and if that is not a real option, I go into meltdown'ish mode. It is my eqiv of just saying "help!" But with ptsd it gets confusing...and comes out in a different way

When I feel threatened or helpless ( not in control), I dont do well. Not in control = serious trauma for me that has occurred in the past. (Thus, what may seem like irrational or out of the blue or disproportionate reaction to someone is a trigger response to protect myself).

I think the first fantastic step is that we recognize we are doing it...and there is a reason for it. That helps a lot.

Also acknowleging right away to others our mis-steps helps a lot. People tend to be quite understanding and forgiving when we come right out and say, "I am really sorry. I am not happy with the way I handled things and wish I had done it differently. I am working really hard on it. Sorry".

I even went so far as to say to someone, " I am sorry...I was just really afraid" They were very compassionate and even had a hug in their eyes.

I dont know what else to do other than this. I can say though my lil meltdowns have been less frequent. Small yay.

I hope this helps a little bit xx

Rose