We did EMDR last week. Unfortunately, i can't remember much, even though at the time, i thought i heard everything and told T i did.
I often lose things, even if i think i will remember them ...then they're gone. Does this happen to anyone else?

It was two other insiders present but one speaking to T, our spiritual one,not me. She says nothing bad ever happened to her. But she told T that i needed to hear what she was saying - and the thrux of that is that 'before conception, the baby was innocent. We were innocent. At conception we were innocent. We did nothing wrong Nothing is our fault.'

This triggered others. If we were innocent we became bad then - by what we did. Some choose to be evil. They say it's want they want. I hate this.
Someone else says Others made us bad then and he wants to do bad, harmful things to them. We are going to hell...and a bunch of other things that i continue to try to drown out or breath into our container until our next T meeting.

Two Protectors gave their words to T that they wouldn't interfer and although they wanted to very badly, they didn't. But there is a lot going on now inside as i try to push everything back and ignore whatever it is.

Someone canceled T session yesterday. But we go tomorrow. I know there is commotion. I read in our journal that there was thoughts of self harm coming from someone. But Protectors said they are determined to keep us safe - new jobs for them as we heal.

All i can say and remember right now.