I know how you feel. I sometimes question where God is in my life. I have many times had something go wrong and blamed God. I have not been in church in a long time. My mom always wants me to go to her church. She is catholic but I am not I am baptist. They always say when we are going through good times we tend to stop seeking God but when everything is going wrong that's when we seek God the most. I myself am guilty of this. I think even in the best of times we need to celebrate what God is doing in our lives. Things will get better just go to God with your problems give them over to him and he will take care of you.If you need someone to talk to feel free to send me a private message on here. I am always here to listen to anyone. Remember seek God in your darkest hour but remember to seek him when everything is going good as well.