I've been divorced from my ex for over five years because of domestic violence on his part. He lives in an apartment and is on social security disability for PTSD, Bipolar disorder, Schizoid-affective disorder, and OCD. I still love him, and it seems he still loves me. In fact, he wants me to reconcile with him and live with me again. Problem is, every time we're together he shows signs of not being mentally balanced; for example, he is obsessed with metaphysical phenomena such that he actually believes he is more enlightened than other human beings and that there is really nothing mentally wrong with him. He doesn't take his meds regularly. His apartment is such a disorganized mess you can hardly move around in it. He admits he'll never be able to work for anyone because of who he is. He appears to be addicted to the computer and internet--it's all he ever talks about, other than talking about his version of spirituality, which is supposed to be superior than most people's. He's still very argumentative and hostile whenever I say anything that even slightly disagrees with his views. I feel sorry for him because he is in such a mess, and if I don't reconcile with him, I'm afraid he'll continue on his downward slope. It's so hard to see someone you love live like that and feel there is nothing wrong. He reports to his psychiatrist once a month and a social worker visits him occasionally. Other than that, he can live in his dream-world. I'd love to be with him again, but I'm not sure I can handle the craziness. And yet I feel if I don't go back to him I'll be abandoning him. Deep down I fear if I did go back it would just be a matter of time before he would become violent again.