Yeah, I do feel numb and I am tired of "feeling" all the pain.
At 12 a man took away my innocence and I feel like he destroyed my life then. I am just tired of dealing with it 25 years later and still feeling like I am 12 and it is happening all over again.
I posted this thread, I guess, to get support about what I was going through. If I wasn't looking for support I wouldn't have posted anything!
I am confused, overwhelmed, mad, sad etc....so I guess I have been stuffing it all inside to just "avoid" it.
It isn't like I don't know what I am doing to get by.
I was just looking for a little feedback and support.
Sorry I have upset or bothered anyone.
I will go back in my hole now.