My downward spiral continues, and each day at work is hell.

I'm starting to think they are piling impossible projects on me with deadlines scheduled so there is no possible way to get each of them completed unless I take the work home each evening, skip sleeping, and then take the work home over the weekend, as well.

This isn't just me being paranoid. Two co-workers (one of whom knows I'm bipolar) observed me getting two conflicting sets of instructions today and encouraged me to speak to the supervisor because there was no possible way to get everything done within the time I was given.

The co-worker who knows I'm bipolar ended up secretly doing 90% of one of the projects for me while I orked on the other project.

When I first started posting here a few weeks ago, someone encouraged me to find out about my employer's short-term and long-term disability insurance in case I need to take some time away.

It looks like short-term disability can last for up to 90 days and I would receive 75% of my salary.

Long-term disability would kick in after that, if more time is needed. Mental illness is only covered for 24 months, and long-term disability pays 60% of salary.

My original thinking was wondering if I explained to a doctor that I've almost been fired 3 times in 1.5 years and dangerously close to it again, maybe they would put me on short-term disability and possibly the outpatient day setting at the local mental health clinic while figuring out the right combination of meds for me.

That would give me a chance to stabilize my meds, put my job on hold, and hopefully get my act together when I return to work.

Any opinions? Any advice?

I'm scheduled to see the psychologist August 8.

Meanwhile, my MD added Abilify to my Celexa two weeks ago. I'm waking up about 5 times each night. Feeling very sleep-deprived and manic.