Welcome to PsychCentral, confusednangry. I'm glad you found us here. Sure, what you're describing could be bipolar or a bunch of other things ...

Sorry, confusednangry--nothing you say is definitive, none of us are diagnosticians, and diagnosis isn't what we do here anyway. I'm pretty sure anyone who reads your post will suggest you see a doctor quickly, because you need help with some serious stuff that's going on.

I'm a bipolar alcoholic, so I've had lots of mood swings, been very angry & out of control. Have you been connected with anyone before? A therapist, psychiatrist, or medical doctor? If so, I would reestablish this connection and go from there.

Roadie