Even though I did not drink for over 50+ years, I have been drinking vodka for the past year. At first I did it to give me liquid courage to do things against my conscious. Now, I just do it. I don't even enjoy the feeling really, I just find myself doing it. I would like to quit. I find 12-step programs very ineffective. I've tried personal studies and home courses but do not follow through. I am going to ruin my health and brain. I need to stop, but how?