Bipolar1...I will try walking away (if I can do so without getting all shaky, I usually have to sit down, lol)

triciadrich, it didn't sound bad at all. I understand, actually, because I haven't been able to show any emotion, really until the anger stuff started to hit. And I have always had the belief (irrational, i know) that I had to be outwardly happy all the time, no matter what. (thanks mom and dad, LOL) Anyway, I am sorry you are not able to express yourself. I understand.

You were totally not rambling, beauflow! I appreciate it!! I got a lot of great ideas from your post, so no worries! I always enjoy reading what you have to say, it is very insightful. How do you do that?

Thanks again for all the responses!