YES!!! That is me EXACTLY! In fact, that is precisely the feeling I've been trying to describe in T the past 2 weeks. (of course, I would change "under mothered" to "not having been mothered"). I've never been able to find any books or other people who have had my experience (nor has my T) so I feel like I'm always struggling to explain myself to others, who simply shrug in their inability to understand.