Okay - so I get 50 minutes for $80.00. I've almost always taken control of session. I guess I want to get my money's worth and utilize time to its best advantage.

I have made lists of 'topics' and just before session I prioritize. I tackle the issues that seem the most important at the time. I force myself to confide in T my most vulnerable feelings. I face my fears as much as I can.

BUT, does this 'taking control' have a downside? Am I missing out on some possibilities of insight?

I guess I fear wasting a session. I guess I fear T and I will stumble and just flounder and not get anywhere.

Today I have session and my mood is amorphous. Lots of stuff going on emotionally but I don't know what or how I should approach the issues. AND, T will be gone next week on vacation so it seems like a lot is riding on today's session - even though I'm not sure what.

How do any of you extract the best possible outcome with each session? I guess I want to do something different today but I have no idea what.