Maybe I can ask her how to best proceed. She'll probably ask what's going on with me or what's on my mind. Or she may suggest sand tray which I don't want to do again. When my emotions are in high gear it's easy to know what to address.

My life is on the verge of imploding/exploding but amazingly my emotions are muted about that. I guess there's too much to address and not one specific high intensity triggering event in my life. (Last week I told her that I feel like I'm on a runaway freight train and that I'm holding on for dear life.)

It's correct not to calculate by the minute. I guess since finances are tough right now, I want the best bang for the buck. Oh, and I will not change therapists. Maybe I'll look to upgrade my insurance and see if it's cheaper to pay higher premium or cheaper to pay T out of pocket. I already pay $500.00 per month on catastrophic health insurance that does not cover squat.

Oh well, I think I'll just ask her when I see her in 3 hours how we might proceed. I want to do something different. I feel like I'm at a standstill.