I had a very similar experience during meditation once...had a vision of the child me, and invited her to sit on my lap and be loved. It came out of nowhere, and I was totally surprised to feel the warm feelings toward her, because I had spent my whole life hating her.

For me, hating her felt familiar and "right". I did tell T about what happened during the meditation, but I felt shy and unsure, because I didn't know if it was "okay" to not hate her.

Right before I left regular therapy with T, I realized what a total badass that little me was to get through what she got through and my feelings about her finally changed, maybe for good. It took a while to get to that point.