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Originally Posted by Perna
I think anything new to us, we're uncertain how T will take it? Are they going to run with it and make a big deal of it before we are ready? Will it mean we have to admit we were wrong in some way? To what extent do we feel we are "in charge" of our experience and feelings and what we have to talk about? I remember my T wanted me to breathe deeply with her but I could not; it was like I would feel entrained http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Entrainment_(biomusicology) (see "Evolutionary function of entrainment") and not myself/able to break away. |
Yes that is how I do feel Perna.
There is also something fairly weird in my head going on - I think it is that I have pushed "her" / that part of my life away and escaped it - I feel more content with how I am now than how I was then, T takes notice of me and I think maybe I am scared that "she" is going to steal the limelight and T will start interacting with her instead of me and I will be left out (defintely a trigger for me). Now that is really weird to see written down.