My diagnosis is bipolar schizoaffective, and therefore I am hypersexual. I remember masturbating to pictures of women when I was way young. At 21 I got a hold of porn, and at age 33 I started going to an addiction counselor. I feel miserable here at 41. Sometimes I do ok, but usually I can't. I hate myself, and am very frustrated. I feel condemned and lost. I don't know where my heart is anymore. Just venting.