(((kiki))) big hugs.

Goodbyes for me are always the hardest to endure and traumatic when there's a strong attachment involved.

Sorry to hear the response you got from the 'out of hours doc' wasn't want you needed. It's difficult when you have a connection with someone and then to try and get that 'feeling' with a replacement is hard.

Do you have another T on your list that you can see?

Try to take in all the good things your T gave you and use those gifts to move forward. Your T would like that I'm sure. Oh and if you can send him an update.

PS - don't apologize for reaching out. We all reach for help at times and we all give back to others when we can.