I'm so sorry that, that happened to you. I know, it's so much worse when it just hits you, and you randomly remember it. It's horrible. It's like so much has just hit you. It's crazy! But the more you talk about it, the more memories will come back. It may not sound that great, but closure will help A LOT. And, talking about it, and getting it out will bring great relief. I hope everything gets better. <3