You have such a good T. She's pushing you a bit, but that's the only way to get you to move forward. Her message to you about your importance to your husband and your son is spot on. She's right: you need to remember that.

You have this tendency to read "meaning" into very concrete things like chair placement and who goes first or who stands up. Rather than assume she has some deep-seeded purpose for those things and latch onto that, CHOOSE to latch onto her message about your importance to your husband and your son. Those other things really don't mean anything except in your imagination; look to the reality which is that your husband cares, your son cares, and yes, your T cares too.

She was really smart to move on to a different topic when you couldn't say anything about your aunt. She actually incited you to blurt out how you weren't understanding what she was saying about your aunt rather than letting you just sit there in silence. Good for you for telling her what you were having trouble with. That's great work.

It was very brave of you to allow her to see your journal. And she used it so well to hone in on that whole concept of being expendable. Notice that you lived through her looking at your journal and it had a really strong outcome in your session.

You really are making such improvement in finding ways to communicate what you need and feel to your T, and your trust in her is growing stronger. Just try not to read too much into environmental changes. They bother you, but it is doubtful that they have a great deal of meaning to your T. That's in your mind for some reason.

Good work Granite!