I know the feeling. I learned from my family not to trust. This did not help me because when I did trust I always trusted the wrong people. I ended up with the idea that I could not trust anyone completely and the only dysfunctional relationships result. I trust a higher power(I use this term because it seems to be more inclusive of everyone) and the strong bonds I have had with pets. I trust people to a limited extent. I am a loner because of it.