Thanks for your kind words guys!-i am making some progress actually, i now have 3 poeple from AA that i feel comfertable calling if i need to talk. i guess i just needed to find poeple that are actually good poeple, that would make good friends, these girls seem really nice and they care about how i'm doing and i care about them too. AA meetings still make me really nervous but im coming to find that most poeple dont want to hurt you, most poeple are alright. im thinking of planning a get together at my house so i can get to know some of the poeple in AA better. you guys are right if i keep trying and putting forth effort theres no reason why i cant meet poeple and form some great relationships.