no, u understand
yes i have professional help
but it seems like its not working as good as i hoped

the guy who did this to me was my best friend
6 months after he did it he came to see me
i got scared so i started screaming, but all he did was help me calm down, then he gave me a hug, and while he was hugging me, he shot himself right in the forehead. i went into shock. after i recovered a bit, i started thinking that it was my fault he shot himself, because i let him rape me. but my therapist, says its not my fault and all that stuff, and some days i believe him and some days i dont. i just get really scared every once in a while, and i feel like even my therapist cant help me.

thanx for listening
-megan-