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Originally Posted by rosesarered
I still feel that way too. Only my monster is a terrified little kid who needs rescuing.
I don't feel very much anger about what happened to me, which makes me feel like
there is something very wrong with me....but half of me is scared all the time, in a
horrendous amount of pain and just looking for somewhere to be put back together.
Even with therapy and support, I am still alone with all these feelings.
I have realized it is my burden. To carry or to let go.
Except I don't know who I am without this other part.
And she is so broken I don't know if she'll ever get put back together.
I hope that doesn't happen to you, and I hope that someday, somehow, some way,
you'll find a way to combine these two parts of who you are and that all your anger
and hurt can find some peace and healing.
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I'm sorry to hear you still suffer too
It is the worst thing a person could go through as a child, even now I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid of ever being used and controlled that way ever again. That is what I fear above all else. If you ever need to talk you know I will understand, so send me a wee message if you need anything. Maybe here, all of us together can get through it
