Going away to boyfriend's is great. There is nothing to worry about but then I COME HOME!!!!. It is like going back to a %#@&#! hole. I really wish I didn't have to deal with them. Living here makes me feel so low. I am realy tried of thinking to much also. No matter where I am it effects me. My mind never stops thinking and worring. It makes me so tired. It is so hard to change a way of thinking. I am just in a horrbile, horrible mood! I am everyday so, I guess there is nothing new.