My friend (basically my only friend where I live right now) got a severe cut the other day. It was a complete accident and she went to the ER. She's never SI'd or anything so this is obviously a frustrating inconvenience for her. But now, everytime I think of her I get upset. Why couldn't this happen to me. Someone who would actually enjoy and appreciate it. It's like she just got a gift that is the most important thing in the world to me, and she doesn't even care. I haven't cut in almost seven years and I just want it so bad. I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about this. I have a T but my next appt isn't for another week. I'm worried when we see each other at a picnic Saturday she'll ask why I've been so distant or be mad for me not having talked to her recently. I'm just not sure I should tell her. She knows I crave blood, but I don't see any good coming from expressing these thoughts and feelings to her.