I am not very smart and cannot hold onto a word anyone says plus I usually push people aside for my own perspective. I do not know how to be smart or think I have any chance against the youth of today so does that mean I should seek power instead? I feel intimidated whenever I leave the house to get something and dealing with people shows me I need an edge that doesn't come. I feel like I should grab hold of life, but I need to know which fork in the road to take.