people with all kinds of disorders sometimes experience dissociation. medical workers would ideally be understanding of this, but it doesn't always happen. sometimes if you see the same nurses and orderlies over and over you can explain the trouble to them while you're feeling well. i try to be understanding that it difficult for them too - not that this is an excuse for abusive or neglectful behavior. unfortunately, sometimes they are put in a position of doing things we don't like to keep ourselves or others safe. if you feel they behaved inappropriately, please report them to your doctor, or to the supervising nurse.