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Originally Posted by anjelmarie
is unbearable sometimes. I'm choked up right now fighting back tears. I just feel like a waste of space. I have done nothing with my life and i have nothing. I don't want to even wake up and face another day. I'm only here to keep other people from having to deal with my death. Thats good for them i guess but sucks for me.  |
anjelmarie.....I'm so sorry about your pain. I know this is hard to "get" when the depression ~the demon is at the controls, but please, if you can possibly can, TRY and remember that thoughts such as that you are a "waste of space" are a result of his control, and NOT the truth. He is, as a therapist of mine used to say....a "trickster", and cares about no one. BUT HE IS NOT YOU, no matter how much it seems that way. Believe me, I've been where you are more times than I can count, and I know how hard it is when he takes away your ability to see any perspective, but I do so hope you are able to think about this at some time. No matter what mistakes you may have made in your life, no matter what shortcomings you may have (we all have them), you are a precious spirit who does NOT deserve to feel how you're feeling. Sending a huge hug, only wish I could do more.....