I did well for along time. I've always stayed off the hard stuff. Never again popped a bean, never tweaked, never again did I steal, lie, corrupt or completely dispose myself as a human being and young woman to get high again. But I will admit that I feel drugs such as pot and beer on an occasion is not a bog deal. Like right now I'm totally buzzed from drinking. It's been forever and a day since a drank, so 3 beers and my head feels heavy. IDK, I know what I'm doing, I know for the behalf of my sobriety I'm failing, but I feel great. I feel as though, I have complete control over this. I know I hate the taste of nasty beer.....so I don't have a problem. I guess I'm just scared of what some may think...confused at this point.