So, ever since I was 8 I have been severely depressed. I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was 11. I tried again when I was 13. I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 8. But, tonight I was going to do it, again. I had deep cuts completely covering my arms. But, I didn't want to die. I just wanted to make people happy. Everyday I have at least one person telling me that they would be happy if I killed myself. All I have ever wanted was to make people happy. But, I was about to kill myself. I wanted help. I never had any faith or hope when it came to the suicide hotline. Any time I had ever called, they didn't help at all. If anything, they made me feel worse. But, tonight...I got the courage to call. The guy who was there...saved my life. He made me feel so much better, and he gave me hope. He gave me the courage and strength to keep living. So this is just a HUGE thank you to the suicide hotline. Thank you SO MUCH. You have saved my life, and I will never be able to thank you enough. I am so glad that I am alive, right now. I have never been so happy to be alive. So, i'm just here to say...there's hope. If you ever feel alone...CALL. There will always be someone out there that will help you. Talking helps. Just let it out, and call them. They will give you hope. I promise.