she has said these things before that were nice and helpful:

- you're going to be ok struggling
- you're doing good
- im honored that you feel that way (after i told her she reminds me of what i wish my mom would've been)
- i like you

What i wish she would say right now.......

" i can be the rock that you need right now. i WANT you to call me when you're struggling and cant pull yourself out of it. dont go to sleep. call me instead"

im having a really rough time right now...rougher than i think she knows. but im not good at reaching out for help. i would love to be able to know what its like to be able to depend on someone who can help. someone who can hold everything together while i fall apart. i know i CAN call but i need a little more encouraging to actually do it. and i dont want to get used to doing it.