Tink--the reason you didn't talk to your mom much in those months was, as you said, because of the case against your dad. I'm sure your mom understood why you needed to stay away. She knew you loved her anyways. At the root of it all is the abuse you suffered and its ripple effects. You did nothing wrong. You were wronged. Of course I know it is easier said than done to let go of the guilt... I hope you will get there one day...wishing you all the best