Not really. It's more like this jealousy thing that makes me feel like she wronged me in some way, by getting what I really wanted.

Job metaphor: I've been working really hard to get a certain promotion/position and then my friend, who hasn't been trying at all and doesn't even want it, is the one who gets it.

I know she didn't do anything to me, but I just feel like crying when I think about her getting what I want.