I have felt frustrated and discouraged as well and I would like to be one of your "cheerleaders" who encourages you not to give up. I started therapy in 1992 for CSA issues as well as for my Bipolar Disorder. I have never been in a romantic relationship due to the fear and shame around my CSA. One thing I have done that might be helpful is this: I have drawn pictures and written about the progress I have made during these years. Although I still have work to do, I can see my growth and I hope you will be able to see the growth in your own life. Working through CSA takes GUTS and TENACITY and I think you are very brave/strong. I sometimes just pray that God will continue to guide my healing. It sounds like you have a wonderful T and you work very hard. Please don't give up!