I can relate. I deal with dysthymia and anxiety and recovered from ednos. A couple years ago, I fell into a deep depression, nearly relapsed with the eating disorder, was basically a total mess, and somehow managed a 4.0 gpa in my first semester of grad school.
I'm currently in a better place, though still struggling, and was excited and nervous about switching to a new grad program across the country. I thought I was ready and felt hurt with my T said she was really worried about me being able to handle it. Over time though, I understood that she just wants me to be prepared for the reality that it will be hard and I will feel lonely and struggle. For me to really acknowledge and embrace that instead of just expecting that I'll handle it and breaking down when I (inevitably) struggle. I've also been pushed to rely on and confide in other people more instead of shouldering the burden all by myself. I know for me, the more I put on a facade for others, the harder I break down behind closed doors, so maybe there is something to having others there as support.
It might be hard to hear what your T is saying, but I'd encourage you to see how she just wants you (presumably) to be as prepared as possible. I wish you the best in your transition and I'm right there with ya!
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