I mean I don't fight it - I let it happen. I feel all there is to feel. It's hard to explain. Maybe this example will help. I had to have an MRI a few months ago, and I'm not exactly clausttrophobic I wasn't at all happy about being in such a closed space for so long. I talked about it with T and he said that the way he handled stuff like that was to think of being somewhere else, like at the beach, and concentrate on that. Just go somewhere else for a while.

I was going to do that, but when it actually started I found I was fascinated by the sounds the machine was making, because the second scan sounded different than the first one. So rather than go somewhere else in my mind, I completely gave in to the experience. I listened to the rhythmn and the patterns of the sounds, and how they varied in intensity. I was aware of how my body felt, how things smelled, the hardness of the table, how I was breathing. I imagined those little rays or whatever they are going through my body but of course there was no pain at all. I just sort of became one with the machine and experienced it totally. It was almost a relaxing experience - except for the noise.

So I guess I mean letting the emotion flow through is to experience it completely, just give yourself up to it, don't fight it at all, let it go, become one with it in a way, and let it pass through. I hope this doesn't sound too weird, but I'm alone in this world and I've had to learn how to cope on my own. I figured this out for myself and it works for me. At least I survive.