Hi,
I am trying to learn my way around this site but it seems complicated to me since my thinking is muddled. There is a lot to read and am going to try to do some of that.

Tonight I am feeling so sad. Can't seems to get past these feelings. It's like nothing will change. Seems like the only time I feel worth anything is if I get out, go shopping, eat out with hubby. But it is hard to motivate myself and then I dread coming back home. We have one car so I haven't got a way during the week unless I drive hubby to work, 20 mi. then back and then pick him up,, expensive. I have isolated myself and stay in bed much of the time. I did wash the dishes today and cooked supper. I felt good about myself for awhile.

For awhile I thought meds were helping but now seems like nothing does.
I want to sleep. But lately it will not come. Don't want to take benzo for sleep very often so I take bendryl. I am prescribed klonipan but take it sparingly.

I have weaned off on pain meds after having disc problems. I take 5 milligrams of loratab only when really necessary. and never took over 10 mil a day for fear of addiction. I take lexapro and a mood stablizer, lamictal 200 ml. time released.

I just needed to write down how I am feeling. Hubby is sleeping beside me. :-) I'm glad I found this group. I hope someone can identify with me.

Thanks for reading and listening.