Grief is a natural extension of love I'm afraid - a reflection of the fullness of it. I am sorry for your loss and hope that there were some moments with your grandmother where you got to say goodbye.

I'm sure you do miss therapy. That's kind of natural don't you think? Therapy can be a lot things, one of them for sure is a place to suspend and process life.

Please take care in the coming days. It's not going to be easy, but do honor your sadness. It's telling you something I think.