i need to know what was done to me and i need to know now. i need to know what did or didnt happen and if it was my dad. this is ruining my life. i cant handle it anymore. i have no idea what to do. i feel like all my options are risky and might not even get me an answer. every day it gets harder and harder to function because of the uncertainty. i cant wait anymore for the "right time". its gone on long enough. why cant i just know. why cant i just work up the courage and not worry about what will happen to my family if i ask. i hate my life right now. i dont know how to live in it anymore.