Well I do appreciate it...that at least helps me feel a little less isolated about it. I mean the worst part a lot of the time is the feeling that no one understands...that just seems to isolate me more because then people bring me down more without even realizing it simply because they don't quite get what I'm going through.

Of course on the bad days I think everyones trying to get to me on purpose, and then I try to convince myself they aren't but then I still get irritable with them. Though realistically I cannot necessarily trust its always simply ignorance on their part. I mean I know my mom has her nasty side but I have never asked 'hey have you ever said anything to try to upset me.' I just I guess maybe want to assume thats never her intention. Not to mention if I did ask her that she'd probably flip out and start screaming at me about how she would never do that and how dare I think that about her. Then of course there's my grandma on my moms side who I recently got into a angry argument with when I tried telling her about my PTSD since she wanted to know why I haven't exactly got my life together yet at the age of 22 and it came up. Anyways she tried to say 'well are you sure your not just dwelling on it.' I had to leave the room before it escalated because I was going to yell at her about how ignorant that was to say to someone with ptsd but who in their right mind wants to yell at their grandmother? I mean its bad enough when I end up yelling at my mom because shes yelling at me.