I've never had money to miss having money if you get what I mean. Still... I'm getting more money on scholarship now than I was getting from student loans and allowances. Sure I'd like money one day... I'd like to travel. I'd like to live some place nice. I'd like to be able to go out more. But at this time in my life... I don't really know any different. I guess ideally I'd like to get a post doctoral fellowship when I've finished up. Ideally I'd like to get two of them and then a research post lol. But... It is very competitive and I'd be lucky to get one post doctoral fellowship truth be told. People think I'm a little crazy and I probably am... But I can't imagine anything worse than having a 4/4 teaching workload at some little tiny university in some little tiny town. I think it really would drive me even more crazy than I already am. Over half the people who get philosophy PhD's never manage to get a job in the field. But you have to be very dedicated indeed to be able to continue your own research with a 4/4 teaching workload. So... It is hard... And I don't know whether it will work out for me. Some people say I'm being defeatest. Maybe I am. I like to think I'm being realistic.

If I don't get a job (and lots of people who finish find themself in this position) then I think I would like to do medicine. I love study. I'd like to become a psychiatrist. I want to write theory at the end of the day... But I think I'd like learning the science and working with clients and having the odd case study ;-) Maybe clinical psychology would be the way to go... I've almost done enough for a major so it wouldn't be so hard to continue with that... The trouble there, however, is that I don't think I'd be eligable for another PhD scholarship (I think you can only get one in a lifetime). Still... You can do clinical (in Australasia) without doing a PhD I suppose... Don't know how seriously they would take me researchwise however... Don't know. I guess I just like to have plan A and plan B and plan C and plan D so I won't be mortified if I can't get a job...

I couldn't do 9-5.
4/4 teaching load is too much like 9-5.
And smaller universities... tend to attract not so great students... who aren't really interested in the subject...
And if i do 'critical reasoning' with too many people who can't speak english i feel like i want to scream...
Truth be told... I was on sickness benefit... Probably would have stayed there for the rest of my life until... I discovered university. I just love academia :-)