just realized that oh someone who i probably only saw one time in my life is somehow related to this crap and yet another thing related to that related to acting a way that was related to my childhood and plus i had to have been really ill at that time and went for a few years before i ended up in the hospital so the childhood reacting to one person i guess had nothing to do with the one person i saw only one time i'm glad i am single and if this stuff gets anywhere and ends i will stay single this all is just humiliation and revenge how could i ever end up with anyone even with therapy especially since either i had never even thought to be with one person another person just appeared once and then another person with the childhood reacting if people would have confronted me i either what i would have said reacting to everything would state that i was ill and the fast one crap was probably just their creation not to mention i did not even have anyway to speak for myself by myself because i was alone and trapped probably by things that were wrongfully put together and i went into more isolation considering i was always away from home so i probably will just stay single since everything that upset me or was created revolved around one person and that is someone who did not want in my life so i see it just as revenge and humiliation if you never spoke with me gone because i was never confronted and i saw you liked me and kinda spoke with you and the reacting stuff something is wrong there because nobody confronted me and other crap with the catch stuff so nothing with you and nothing with the one time person where i somehow found something that was borrowed and a car drove past so nothing with you because i never spoke with you and anybody that protected anyone there is something wrong there especially if they feel i retaliated against someone because of what they did so that means alot of people are in trouble but its all corrupt and this just makes me feel better and forgot about the one person i will not have anything to do with because i was never interested in you and now nobody any anyone who says i was they should be in trouble to and thats just because it doesn't look right so anyone having any say over me would be guilty to in a non corrupted world