"What is your most problematic Bipolar symptom?"

Psychotic Ideations about life, death, God, Satan etc. I am always getting into trouble with people for my psychotic ideas and they are worse during my manic cycles. I have been banned from countless bipolar forums for speaking my opinions which apparently upsets the rest of the bipolar world. I can't even make friends because of it. :-(

Then there's always that one person who makes a smart *** comment suggesting that I am in the wrong and they don't give a damn and why don't I just take my "Idiot" self and leave here bla bla bla crap that I hear everywhere I go...at times I believe being bipolar is just "F"ing hopeless.

The problem is that these kinds of bipolar oriented sites and forums are full of people with control issues and are passive aggressively pushing their weight around triggering people like me. So you see, this is my bipolar type problem that is unique to me and quite different than say a bipolar 2 who is always laying around depressed and not psychotic at all.