I'm very willing to acknowledge there may be something wrong with me. I'm in therapy and several years ago considered very seriously that some of me was evil. So, if there is, I have been trying to understand and contain it.

But I truly don't understand -- maybe you can explain it to me? How is it that my being in a crappy mood hurts other people? If I can't get out of it except by faking -- which I did for years and years and years.

I numbed out the hurt I had inside from my childhood and now -- if my being in a crappy mood hurts somebody else, I really don't understand that. Plus therapists all these years ago used to say "get in touch with your feelings" and "be authentic".

The other people in my family and my children, we all learned to keep our pain to ourselves, too, and so they won't tell me. Or maybe they think I should already know.

So, now despite all the therapy, I'm like the First Poster (queen_of_hearts). What's the point?