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Originally Posted by rcrss5
I just don't know how much longer I can deal with this psychological pain. I feel all twisted up and feel as if I can't breath.i just don't know what to do, I can't. Move off the couch I am just watch my kids do anything they want to do and I am to slow or dead to yell at the . I took some Ativan but it didn't. Help. I need to make dinner but I can't I am useless and can't help my kids. I want to die but their is no one to care for my kids, maybe I should just give up and hope someone will come forward and take them, hopefully their loser father wii, bt I don't know maybe they will be better off with me. I can't see any getting better by talking with my therapist once or every two weeks will do. I fell overwhelmingly hopeless. Every day I wake it is the same **** and the same problems, I am hanging by a string and that string is going to. Real soon. Th
Is pain will never end, it just gets worse and worse.
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Sounds like you are hating your present life and need something more to satisfy you. Your husband is a loser so you can't even kill yourself since you can't leave the kids with him. So now what? Well, unless you got money you can't change your living situation and that can hurt your personal growth.
Can you get away for a while on a little vacation. Take one kid and leave the other? Or leave the kids at a friends/relatives and just never come back. You need to start a new life and chuck that old one away. Divorce that loser and get a younger man? What are you looking for?
If I had any money at all, I would go out and live while I can cause life is way to short to waste away on a nightmare when you could be living your dream. But right now I am just living check to check so I can't even get out and away from my loser wife so I know how you feel. Hang in there.
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