lol sorry about the slang I will try to think about that when I post again so thank you for pointing the difference out to me appreciate that. Always tickles me how we speak the same language but its totally different.

A fag is a cigarette also a gay but in this case I meant a cig tee hee and a brew is a cup of tea no alcohol lol... :-)

I am from the UK. I am welsh:-) I don't know why but people from abroad always think we are all English but we are British as a whole or Welsh, Scottish, Irish or English... sorry rant not at you but I never understood why the whole world think the British are all English.

I have tried to complain before because I am always mistreated because of this, I have walked out of the hospital with a black eye because they did not realise I was having a flash back, I never really found out what happened but I can only guess they thought I was being violent i don't remember anything but I don't see how else this could have happened.

A group of nurses ganged up on me once, refused to let me shower because I could not stand (I was in for a week)I was in hospital with a slipped disk injury then but again I cannot really remember what happened that lead to this gang up or why they thought I was weird. 3 of them came on the ward and asked me why are you so weird I said I had PTSD but they carried on that I was strange, a freak. The night before a nurse refused to help me up when I fell using a zimmer frame and so I was not comfortable trusting this nurse the next night and asked for a wheel chair but they refused to take me to the toilet even though I was on my period. I told them that I did not feel safe I could feel myself loosing grip and becoming overwhelmed. They told me not to be stupid.... I don't know what happened next the next... thing I knew I was on the floor in the corridor crying my eyes out with the mental health team.

The following morning another patient on the ward discharged herself in discust of their treatment of me.

The problem I have is how can i complain when I have no idea what happened.... I would love to know how other people overcome this problem because I cannot work this out, I need their help but they treat me like a pain on their time and resources. I tried to get my records off my GP to see if it explained what happens during these black outs that make the nurses treat me so badly but they held it all back from me. I have sneaked my records before whilst transfering wards and I know they go into detail but they are keeping these from me... why???

There is one ward in my local hospital that know me well and they are brill infact better than brill they really understand and have seen me since the beginning and they know that I am ill not messing them around so they treat me well and understand my condition and look after me so that when I leave hospital I do feel better but A&E is a lottery as to what treatment and wards that don't know me don't understand, I try to explain but it does not help they just think I am attention seeking I am sure.

How can I get the message across that I really have no control, that I don't even know what happens that I am not seeking anything from them that no other patient in the hospital wants no more no less.

There must be someone else who has experienced this.... how should I handle this?? or how have you experienced problems that people do not understand.

It is not med related because all of my meds have been stopped because i am high risk and it is still happening watching the olympics has been driving me potty (Crazy) as I start watching a game but never catch the end. Things in the flat have been moved, I am sometimes not even in my falt anymore. I will me shattered and look like I have been dragged through a hedge backwards but I have no idea what happened. To be honest it is scaring the crap out of me... I go to hospital for help but they treat me like a freak.

Any and all advise please!!!!